Why is that..

Sometimes when I wake up my heart aches when I think about him.

Love shouldn't hurt. 😔 

Blessed bleach

 Browsing cleaning products to clean my toilet, I found that a scented bleach brand simply has the smell of Juninho. Yes, my ex-best friend from Brazil smells like this bleach Alin. We used to hug a lot and that particular smell is the same of the bleach's. I was amazed. Such an unique smell found in such ordinary product!

Plant based soul

I have to admit that one of the most significant decisions I have taken years ago was to become vegan. 

Haunted by Cristicism

 Had I known that, given the level of criticism that I hold, I’d be faithed to enclose myself in my own island.

Once my cousin Eduardo warned me I was getting myself into an island and indeed he was right.

If an island was what was need to keep my values alive, so an island I built and would build again.

Life in Brazil is not as easy as one could imagine for it is surrounded in the our magnificent nature in it's rawest form, however, so are the humans there as well. Many who I would talk to and feel not understood. There is no good or bad here but what fits to what I needed. That didn’t.

Even though it seems life in Europe is more interesting for me, still way below my expectations. And after all what moves me forward and also makes me stuck in depressive thoughts is this high patter of criticism. Might have been the years writting down each and every thought of mine. Trying to elaborate on everything around and inside me, made me extremelly critic. So much that my mom calls me sometimes Critiquínia.

We, holders of a high criticims, have at hand the almost unbearable temptation on assuming we hold the truth just because we hold our perspective dear and close, and we don’t want to think this is a wrong one. But once we understand there is no wrong, nor right but the most profitable for every part, in terms of resources management, we are free from this hauting thoughts. 

On the weekends I listen to CBN radio because I do care about my roots, even though it did not provide me the best environment. With the previous stated argument, I can feed this love with no guilty.