I met this Dutch guy out of a vegan app. He seemed to be sharply ready to find me. But he has chosen not to. When our paths crossed, he took the way out. There is this that I could not avoid realising, though. Most of my life I left people before they could think about leaving me like my father did. I like to think I did it first. And when you get a broken heart, you might act in a similar way, you will try to break someone's heart before they break yours. I think this was the case. He struggled hard on that when generally I just need a sign and I am out, I was acting beyond my tolerance this time. Was not worthy. Those unconscious choices that we do, once put flat and straight in a rational perspective, they show how much time we may lose because of our fragilities and the fear to face and resolve them. Might be that most of us don’t realise, a part that realise and do nothing and there is this thin layer that is actually doing something, but then they struggle to find each other, for they are very few.
Whatever is unbearable, I’ll stew my thoughts on words, sometimes they get published in here.
