One little detail that few realise is that low self-steem can destroy not only your relationship with yourself but with the others. Not believing in your own capabilities may converge one's goals to nothingness, in the best scenario. I believe that is what not really destroyed but actually prevented me and my ex from building a real relationship. He was not able to believe I completely loved him, most probably he can’t believe he is that lovely. Even though he is, and not a little! So much lovely that he doesn’t dare to think that much of himself. I thought that expressing to him much of my care and devotion would make his mind change about himself, but that was a theraphy for more than a decade, in the dosis my ego could allow me to provide, so my patience had a tragic end, at the end.
I may not be the best friend I could have found, sometimes, but I try to be, most of the times. Once Napoleon said something alike "want to know which is your best shoulder to rely on? your own!". That is so true to me. Not to support egocentristic thoughts, which is quite overpopulated on Earth, but that is a fact. Building a solid foundational relationship with our own can save us from uncountable troubles. It is also what is supporting me now, in the process of moving on my life, having to move over the life I had with such lovely person, my ex Dave. That is what literally saves me from drowning myself into eternal tears at night before sleeping or when I wake up. Before loving him, thanks goodness, I have been loving myself, and now, for the sake of habit of whatever, I keep doing. It feels good to know I will be there to hold myself, in case of danger. If there is someone we can count on, this one has to be our own, primarily. If it's not so, ones relying on you are in trouble.
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